FAILURE FAILURE... I feel like a.n. application site is taunting me as I try to apply for a rather delicious job 🤣🤣🤣

Anyone else feeling a bit like a failure today?

I find that when we share these feelings we realise it's not all as bad as we internalise... a worry shared and all that?!

The past 24 hours I've had 3 epic fails:

1. I took my mum - who isn't very well - to a spa hotel for a treat. It caught fire. I **** you not. She's now at home in bed with possible hypothermia and I'm on my 4th train of the day as my direct train home was cancelled and the route shut 'for an unknown period 🔥

2. I was shortlisted for a job I was really excited by and then the role took a u turn and turned out to be different to what I was expecting... and I'd already planned my first day outfit, ordered a new notebook and basically convinced myself I'd be starting on Monday 🙈
I'd also travelled at quite an expense to meet my new potential boss in person and then cancelled said meet. I feel terrible 😱

3. I never leave home without my laptop - due to earlier mentioned spa treat I decided, so unlike myself, to leave it at home. Yesterday a possible client asked for a quote asap & I can't access my documents to provide a solid one without my laptop... & of course my train home was cancelled and I'm now on train 3 heading to a coach replacement that I'm confident will not have Brendan at the front and lots of fun passengers to share with 🤣

So how can I focus less on the things making me feel like a failure today?

People in the know tell me I need to embrace my emotions. I am, I promise:

The application site not working isn't my fault and is likely not working for the other folk also trying to apply! So I shall persevere and take a breath.

The hotel will surely offer us the chance to go again - and at least nobody was hurt in the fire. Especially my lovely mum. And we saw hunky fire people.

The quote will still go today and I need to respond not react - I.e. a simple "this will be with you later today" and stop feeling guilty I can't do it immediately. The current climate heightens our sense that everything is URGENT. It actually isn't.

Acknowledging irrational thoughts about failings is also key when minimising feeling like a failure... and I think saying this all out loud (well to you dreamboats) is helping me remember that today's incidences do not actually a failure make.

Lastly experts advise that when we have failings we accept an appropriate level of responsibility and so...

I am on a train and that may be contributing to the application issues - I acknowledge I may be worrying unnecessarily

I should have listened to my gut and agreeing to a face to face meeting when I had concerns wasn't how I should have managed the job situation

I chose to leave my laptop at home and only take my personal phone

I'm not however taking one for the team on that fire and Avanti can take all accountability on my nightmare journey. the swines. EPIC FAIL!